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2006-11-28T01:06:00.000-08:00

hihi , here to blog again . . . haven been doing much recently , just keep going out until the next morning wif my "study group" and have great fun everytime . haha . hmm , recently went sentosa wif about 19 other friends , then had sunburn on my face , shoulder and back . . . but still had fun wif my friends , like jumping off the "bridge" which we got scolded for . . . and other water games , haha. got one we keep on discussing wat to put , then "sabo" my other friend haha . hmm , today don know why got slight fever , hope i can alright soon cause tomorrow i trying to go down victors to support my god-bro(stanley) as he is bowling in the youth challenge , and i have to go for another trail for sajc on wed . . . hope i do well . haha , oh ya, i also applied for mi first 3 mth le , so well , jan onwards will not be free le , k , la , i know short post , but nothing else le , haha . well , sit back and enjoy this classical song that i love . haha.

~confused again~ which one is the right choice ? i don wanna make another mistake again . .. (so pls , just show me a sign . . .)

~well cya , blog some other time. takecare friends~time now is 1.06 a.m~

2006-10-27T01:50:00.000-07:00

Hmmm , haven been posting recently , casue don feel like, no mood and nothing to post . . . cause have been just studying studying studying andddddddd . . . . .. .. studying . . . . . haven been myself lately , cause of some incident . well , i now blogging , is cause nothing to do , now is 1.46am and ITS EILEEN'S B'DAY !!!! happy birthday !!!!! haha and yst was wei si b'day , also another happy b'day !!!! haha , BOTH TURN ~ SWEET 16~ . . . wonder why is it sweet 16 , then i next year 18 le , wat willl it be called ? sour , bitter 16???? LOL haha , well , life has not been going too well now adays , but life stilll has to go on , well , happy reading this post , as it might , MIGHT be the last post on this blog , still not sure yet . . . well , hope u enjoy the song that i just uploaded , heard it over the radio and thx to a good friend called eileen lim . . . she help me d/l and i uploaded it on my blog . haha , THX ! ok bb , gtg le , tomorrow still waking up to jog ( very long never exercise le . .. ) hope my mind don wonder off like the last time where i nearly got knock down twice . . . haha bb. cya sometime later .

~well cya , blog some other time. takecare friends~time now is 1.50 a.m~

2006-10-15T09:37:00.000-07:00

FINALLY , haha , my internet back again . . . hmm , now is 12 32am just decided to blog . . . well , i did very very badly for my prelims . . . . shall not say , but the points still can go poly that kind la . . . hmm , been really really confused recently la . . . well , onli my close and good friends / "brother" knows about it la . . . haiz , really don know wat to do la . . . today went out around 1 pm , to cathey , was very nice la the building , but not every shop open yet . . . wanted to watch movie , but then the time slot sold out . . . then no timeslots that can fit into the "curfew" . . . haha LOL . but then nvm de la . . .haha , hmm , after that went home , took books , went to fajar macs to study , then study wif swee hong , and dong qian , but awhile , dong qian leave le . . . after that saw ZHONG MING , and samual .. . after that , swee hong left , so i chiog through the chapeter that i was doing notes for , then after that went over to chit chat wif zhong ming .. . haha damn damn damn funny la . . .haha. hmmm , now really have to chiong studies liao ar , 17 ! more days to my first paper !!! omg , so stress la . ..haha . well , nothing else to blog about le , ok , so cya guys another time .. .haha

~confused ~~~ . . .

~well cya , blog some other time. takecare friends~time now is 12:39 a.m~

2006-09-29T10:20:00.000-07:00

hmmm , just reached home , and just decided to blog . . . so well , got back my prelims results . . . i am really so dissapointed wif myself la . . . all score very badly except for maths which got A1 , the rest is liek just border line passes , and failed one subject which is poa la . . . on wed played "captain ball" but using netball rings instead of someone to catch , then played wif lower sec class . . . they really alot of people sia . .. haha but totally got owned by us , but during the game, i jumped for a ball , and one kid banged me at my spine and it hurt until today . . . haiz, don know why , i think my back really cannot make it liao la . . . hmm , now adays go back school to find teacher or wat is really super super MA FAN AR !!!! have to sign in all this crap . . . waste time . today had short day . . . but really no mood to do anything in school , cause of my results . . . then after school went out wif friends to eat at 163 , and went out wif another group to play pool , woohooo , since a long time i have brought my pool cue out to play , totally on fire la . . . then got one match i playing wif yansin , after the break , it was ys turn , then he missed , so my turn , then i keep on shooting in all my balls . . . i was thinking of other things . . . then until last ball suddenly ys say that "wa can don't own me until like that ma ?" then it suddenly brought my mind back to the state where i am playing for fun . . . after that , went wif ys and cy to eat at al amin but then cy half way leave le , then after that me and ys go plaza study wif swee hong and soon later came zhi cheng , wen ting , wen ting cousin ,markus , shi hua , eugene and yun fang . . . had alot of fun la . but well , now adays i hardly can cheer up cause i really got too many things on my mind la . . . haiz. well , EOY is coming and N LVL is coming soon , starting this monday , wish all the people taking this exams good luck.
haiz ,don know wats wrong wif me now adays la . . . keep on thinking of other things other then study . . . very difficult to concentrate la . . . haiz but well , still have to study so i already made a plan on when to study wat subject from wat chap to wat . . . haha.

"Every now and then , images start running through my mind making me unaware of everything happening around me , even if i die on the spot , i would not know until the images stop going through my mind as they are all precious memories and so i hope i could be given a chance to express my feelings to you before everything is too late~~~just this one chance~~~pls"

~well cya , blog some other time. takecare friends~time now is 10:20pm~

2006-09-24T00:30:00.000-07:00

back again ! haiz , finally prelims over liao , but still very stressed about getting results back . . . today woke up , had the graduation thingy , that the school organised . was rather dry abit la . but then my friends stirred up the atmosphere by cracking jokes here and that . haha. then after the thing had buffet , but i see onli i also no appetite , wats worst , is that i had gastric !!! . . . long lnog one time will get . . . but then no mood to eat , so never eat anything then had gastric till i ate something light at home . . .after that , went to marina to play game . . . play dota and cs . haha , today was alright la , but then the journey home was very long and tiring . . .then now nothing to do , so just update lor . . .haha. hope i can score A1 for my e maths ! put in alot of effort for it lor . . . haha.

"Time is in seconds , minutes and hours . Time is all about the future that we look forward to , the present that we are living in , and the past that has long passed us.Time is precious , and it waits for no one , and does not turn back at all. but i promise , if u gave me this chance , u will never regret the time we will have together as i will do my best to make every moment of u'r life nothing to regret about ."

~well cya , blog some other time. takecare friends~time now is 12:30am~

2006-09-17T21:12:00.000-07:00

REFLECTION

Look at me
You may think you see who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

I am now
In a world where I have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

There's a heart that must be free to fly
That burns with a need to know the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide?

I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

"well this is wat i am feeling now . . . haiz"

~well cya , blog some other time. takecare friends~time now is 9:12pm

2006-09-16T21:49:00.000-07:00

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hihi , to everyone who see my blog , must see the above link !!! very very meaningful and true. haha. hmm , last week went school everyday , but onli had 4 papers , should be able to score for all , except my physics , cause i hardly study that . . . i thought it was paper 1 , end up paper 2 . .. i sian tiao. hmmm , then the rest of the days , went back school , study study study . . . .zzzz. today woke up around 7 30 , then went to macs around 9 plus . starting not so crowded . .. then after taht so crowded , till got chase out , but then i did not , cause i drinking the drink , then end up i see people no space , then i just leave. . . then went to library , then after that went macs to find swee hong to study again , but then a short while , had to go off for my nephew's 1mth b'day . actually now i got 2 new nephews , but haven seen them . . . today first time , omg , they are really super super super cute la . . . then stayed there for awhile ,then at 7pm , went off bac k to plaza to study again . . . then after that finish awhile after , walk around plaza around then come back le . . . today day was ok la . . . but kind of sian.haha.

"will i ever get a chance?" ~waiting~

~well cya , blog some other time. takecare friends~time now is 9;49pm

2006-09-09T13:14:00.000-07:00

hihi , back again . ..haha , well have been rather busy recently , as i have been going back school since wed , then after that i study outside . . . for the whole week . .. cause mondays my prelims le . . . hmmm , yst was wen tings b'day , there was really a number of people . . . haha . when we wanted to go eat , it suddenly just rained , then we went over to taka and decided to eat there , at one pasta place .afer eating , we sang birthday song , and also bought a cake for her , and as usual , because its her 16th b'day , she had to "bite out the candle holder" but then nothing happend . . . cause i was trapped inside the seats , and could not stand up to push the plate up . . .haha . she is really very lucky, as this is the first time a friend who has just turned 16 , never get cake smashed in he/her face . ... haha. well , after that went to watch a midnite movie , but ended up watching the movie at 1:30am . . . and we were there at 11plus . . . then we slacked and slacked , then around 12 we went up to play pool , its been a long time since i have played pool man . . . but still had the skills there , although not playing seriously . . . haha , after all , we went there just to waste time . . . haha.after that we went in to watch the movie - LITTLE MAN. it was seriously damn damn damn funny la . . . super funny , it really made the whole crowd laugh and laugh . well , i would not go into details bout the movie , cause it might spoil it for people who havent watched it yet . haha.then we went home taking nr3 , we were all so tired , we wanted to sleep , but there was this IDIOT playing music on his PS2 aloud , i was like saying aloud all the way , "wa got money to buy ps2 , no money to buy ear piece ar???" then somemore , his songs were old . . . really old . . . i guess if i meet him next year , he will be listening to here without you . . . and somemore the songs not onli old , but really not nice to listen to de . .. haha ,thats all , gtg study later again . . . cya

When will I ever know ???

~well cya , blog some other time. takecare friends~time now is 1;14pm

2006-09-03T07:32:00.000-07:00

hey guys , sorry for not replying msgs at msn or watever . . . well i am just very confused right now , well , i serously don know why of all time to think of this thing , it has to be now . . . i know its very confusing for you right now . . .i understand u'r problem . . . but i don know why , all this just seems like it has happend before to me . . . and it ended up all bad . . . i just don't wanna have that same feeling if u get wat i mean . . .haiz , i really don know wat to do . . . i am really confused and really don know wat to do . . .how i just wish for a miracle to happend . HAIZ . i don know why , but i just feel very down . its not you , its just me. you are 1 in a million which i wish i could have , but i don seem to be able to reach . now i am just sitting infront of my com and thinking , thinking and thinking , don know why i have to think so much . . . HAIZ. can i just switch of my brain ????i don wish to scare you or anything . sorry. ~TC~

~well cya , blog some other time. takecare friends~time now is 10:40pm

2006-09-01T10:06:00.000-07:00

hihi , back again , haiz , been down recently , don know why . . . maybe cause i am sick for the pass few days . . . now d&t finally over liao , start chiong my studies , 11 sept prelims liao . .. haha. well , on wed had final lessons before prelims and guess wat? when i playing captain ball with a style of netball , i injured my leg joint and injured my back again . . . haiz . sian to mention another thing , i am really sorry for someone , who i have been msging alot recently , cause i just read the blog and the person got scolded by the mom cause the bill was super overshot . . . really sorry lei . . . well, just now woke up around 8 , then 9 went to plaza mac to start studying on my own , then later zhi cheng came , then wen ting , then zixin and shu hui and then yansin . . . then suddenly i like no mood to study . . . haha don know why la . then after that at night went out wif my group of friends "night kids" but today was kinda of boring . .. total failure haha. then now somemore sick . . . haiz , feels so sian to be sick la . . . then my back still pain . . .haiz.k la , going off to sleep le , bb !

~well cya , blog some other time. takecare friends~time now is 1:06 am

2006-08-26T21:11:00.000-07:00

hmmm , haiz , i still thinking so much for wat . . .haha , well on friday , was rather upset in the morning , but now way way much better le , haha thx for all the concerns from friends ! then that night , went out wif wen ting , zhi cheng , colvin , lian jie and ys to thimah to makan prata , but i ended up going there just to drink teh terek . . . but very nice . . haha drank 2 cups , been a long time since i drank taht lor .. . after taht went to L O L to play lan , bloody hell , they change management , then i have to sign for new memeber ship . . . stupid lor haha , then play dota . . . first tiem playing lor , then don know , they ask me just chiong , then i keep dieing . . . stupid lj keep killing me . . . but well , nvm , first time play .. . haha wait till i get used to the game , i make sure i own you .. . haha . next day , sat - early in the morning went to plaza meet stanley to makan lunch le , then he got training , i go there watch , then passed a birthday gift to my friend .(hope she REALLY likes it . . .haha) then after thier training sat down wif them at wang jiao , then went to study awhile wif stanley , then i don know why . . . but like no mood ,cause do summary then cannot thinkg of anything to do . . .
alright then today so far , i don know why , i woke up so early at 8 am . . . my stupid body still don wanna go back sleep somemore .. . haha then after awhile , when the rain stopped , i went jogging , i was like thinking so much until i never concentrate where i jogging . . . nearly got knock down by a van !!! . . . haiz , don know why sian , just hope for that miracle to happend . . . haha . haiz , now so boring , nothing to do , so blog . haha . later most prob going to meet my other godbro to eat lunch , then study awhile , haiz , i really wanna change my phone lor . . . my stupid father don wanan buy new one , last time still can ask me wanna go change go see then tell him , i tell him le , stupid feedback from his friend is that it will hang when take photo . .. but i ask my friend , he say never hang , is just lag lor . .. WTF , don they know the diff of hang and lag ???? stupid lei , then my father don wanan buy me that phone k800i till he claim they solve the prob . .. haiz ARGH .. . haiz i wish to have a gift of providence!!!

~well cya , blog some other time. takecare friends~time now is 12:25pm

2006-08-24T04:39:00.000-07:00

haiz , don know why now adays i got mix feelings , i seriously don know if she even has feelings for me or not la . . .sian lor, i so no mood , until no mood to study altough prelims is on 11sept , shall not reveal anything bout her yet , but well , i really wish this does not turn out to be like other cases where they just teated me as a brother , thats why so close . . . i will really totally turn off lor . . .today keep chiong d&t project . . . the stupid alvin damn funny sia, he go make randel lim . .. super funny la . . .haha. hmm , actually now onli my close friends know who i like la . . . haha. did a keychain for her on monday 21/8/06, i even cut my self 3 times accidently while doing it . . . don know when or how to pass to her sia . . .hope she likes it ba. haiz , i don know why i just hope i am not making another wrong choice and start going crazy like last time . . . haiz i wish to have a gift of providence!!!

~well cya , blog some other time. takecare friends~time now is 7:42 pm

2006-08-18T22:44:00.000-07:00

hmmm , haven been blogging recently , cause really nothing to blog about . . . yst was my english oral for o lvls . . .i was so nervous la , but i think should be safe ba, hope i can score distinction in that.after that went to basetball court to play bball , and do some stupid stunts till now my back slightly injured , but i stil don care .. . haha later maybe going to play bball at night .then yst play finish le , go canteen slack wif friends , then chatted wif zhi ning awhile , then she try my e maths papers , then she say no mood to do , cause exam just over .. . . haha , then i was like is u don wanan do or don know how to do . .. HAHA . .. jkjk . hmmm ,nowadays i also don know wat i am feeling la , its just a whole mixture of emotions . . . . now theres this girl , but i don even know if i like her or not yet . . . its like really LOL lor . . . haha , i don care even if my class mates see this post , cause i don care wat they think . .. HAHA .wanan bad mouth , then bad mouth lor , not like its getting u any pride or money??? the most u bad mouth me , i loss some friends , DON"T WORRY i got alot of friends so just go ahead lor !!!! later going to plaza to study with stanley , my god-brother , then now in the main time don know wat to do , just blog .. . haha , really sibei sian ! . k la , i go off le , bb

~well cya , blog some other time. takecare friends~time now is 1:46 pm

2006-08-09T02:24:00.000-07:00

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY TO ALL SINGAPOREANS ! hmm , well , my life have not been going on so well either , that time had a final match wif alvin's team , well we manage to win , 6 - 3 with me scoring 2 goals . . .hehe .haiz , then on monday , tio caught by the stupid miss tan a.k.a old bitch , then have to cut hair . . . it took me so long to get my hair to that length , then have to cut it all away . . . sian tiao lor . stupid miss tan , cut simi hair ????then recently went drinking , one tip for all , don leave u'r stomach empty if you are going to drink , cause that day , i did not eat anything the wholeday , then ended up drinking so much until i puke . . . the more sian tiao thing is , some people think i so fast drunk . . . well watever lor , if they don belief me jio me out go drink see who drink until drunk lor . . . yst went to nicki house to do d&t then at night went wif friends to watch fireworks , well it was nice , but kinda of boring , don know why la . . . haiz, maybe i just feel a sense of loneliness . . . now so many friends all getting attached le . . . then seldom go out wif them , haiz , so bored lor . . . later going to do the stupid d&t folio again at nicki's house , so well , bb all. . .

~well cya , blog some other time. takecare friends~ time is 5 .25pm

2006-07-27T09:55:00.000-07:00

~In memories of 27 july 2006 ~
well , today half way through my lesson , i received an sms which said my grandpa was going to be brought home , but it isn't a good sign at that stage , cause i knew it was one of his last wishes was that he hated hospitals and so if he wanted to rest in peace , he would rather be at home . so i rushed over to my grandparents place , then when my grandpa arrived , immediatly , we recieved sms that my cousin had given birth , one more of his wish come true . and so when we laid him on the bed , he was still gasping for breath , but soon started to breath slowly , then when we told him the good news taht my cousin has given birth, he opened his eyes , then we all went in to talk to him one by one , when we all finished , he just passed on/away , i immediatly broke into tears crying , as i can say its the first time i see someone die infront of me , and the main thing is because i love my grandpa too much to see him like this , but well , he got all his last wishes fulfilled and he passed on peacefully and he has lead a life which not many has reached as he is 90 years old this year . well , and another thing is my mom's boss's wife , aunty nancy , went for a surgery today , and we were also stressed up , and well she is fine . haiz , well no matter wat happends , life still has to go on , but i just don know why this year is seriously a very terrible year for me , first is about "HER" and now is bout my grandpa passing on , and another is my results as i did not do well . haiz , just hope things would take a turn and go well for the rest of my life .
~well cya , blog some other time. takecare friends~

2006-07-23T01:36:00.000-07:00

Hmm , well i would let in somethings to you guys out there . would you rather get a direct rejection from a girl ? or rather her giving you false hopes by giving you fucking reasons to reject you , then after that one day u discover she is going steady wif another guy? well , i guess all my friends who know who i like gets a rough idea lar . . . haiz , make things worst , when i don wanna think about this matter , suddenly it pops up infront of you . . . just yesterday i saw both of them together when i was going out wif covin to watch a very funny show - nacho libre but well , by seeing that , really worsen my whole day . . . yesterday first i went out wif my god-bro --- stanley and told him bout this , as he also can see , i am very upsad over this , then after that in evening went to watch movie wif colvin , then after that at night went out wif another bro - my aniki then sat down wif him to talk all night bout this , well he tried to "counsel" me , but still i cannot forget bout this , then clever him , half way change topic to talk bout bowling . . . hmmm, tell you the truth , i don care who is/are reading this , i don give a fuck if u tell her or bad mouth about me in school , but better not let me know , cause i am already in a bad mood , so if u just add somemore oil to the flame , you might just see my "past".hmmm , to anonymous , i got a rough idea who you are la , in my class right ? well , never mind ba , at least i know still got people read this blog . . LOL . . .

~well cya , blog some other time. takecare friends~

2006-07-18T04:36:00.000-07:00

hmm where should i start . . . ok , as u can see , i have changed my blogskin le , credits all to syahidah as she helped me cr8 this blogskin . thx , this is really a very nice blogskin :) ok . today went to school , so BORING day . . . haiz , then got to know some truth which sadden me , then waited just for the bell to ring , then when it ring , my friend told me got csp . . . i sian tiao , today english so boring somemore . . . then after csp went to play soccer wif my friends , scored a couple of goals as we challenged the 5a's but then half way , the stupid MARAN ! stopped our match and asked us to clear the field in 5 MINS . . . after that nvm , we went to play basketball , then half way , the stupid MISS TAN ! came and scold us for our noise volume , and asked some of them to put on clothes . . . sian lor , today my day FUCKING FUCKING SUAY !!!! but well, later going to bukit thimah to eat , most probably prata . . . hope things would be better . . . ok thats all for today . . . bye bye

2006-07-11T06:41:00.000-07:00

haiz , don know wats wrong wif me now adays liao . seems like i am not enjoying life as i am suppose to so far . . .well , i studied so hard for all my mid year papers , yet , the results are fucked up , haiz , most just merely pass . when i took back my results i was in complete shock , i seriously did not expect myself to do so badly la !!! . haiz .

i am just feeling so FUCKED UP now ! i don know why i got so many things to think about , i just wonder how am i going to concentrate . well p.s.- i am not talking bout relatioships or wat ever , its a personal matter. haiz , just thinking why must life be so cruel? , why must we be born if we would have to die one day ? why why why ???? i really wonder wats the point of creating life in the first place if there are so many complications , so wat if we manage to overcome certain situations ? is life a game ? are those who created us betting on which living thing survives the best? HAIZ !!!!!!!!! ~~~~

well , have been watching my name is earl , and i am really thinking if there is really a thing called karma ? does it really exist ? or is it just like a miracle which has to be created by one ? cause seriously so far , i have done alot of good things recently , but has any good been returned to me ? answer: NO . haiz , so bloody messy la my life !just don seem to be my usual self anymore . i have cheered so many people up my whole life , but why is it i cannot just be happy on the inside . . . i guess that's where the saying "Don't judge the book by it's cover" comes into place.

~well cya , blog some other time. takecare friends~

2006-07-09T00:30:00.000-07:00

Back again , finally got thing to update . . . well , did not do very well for my exams so far . . . but still ok la . yst went to sentosa wif zixin , mabel , jing ni , siqi , lian jie , covin , zhang wang , chong yong , kennth & alvin . . . went there to play , then celebrate chong yong and zhang wang b'day . well happy birthday guys !.first , wake up in morning at 7 . . .then manage to reach the meeting point at 7 45 . . . then waited so long for everyone to arrive which was about 8 40 . then took bus 963 there , then transfer to shuttle bus to sentosa . when we took the bus to siloso beach , we stop too early ! diao then have to walk there, but lucky us , when we reached not much people were there , then we manage to find a sheltered spot , so that became our spot the whole day . . .first went to play "beach rugby" haha so damn funny , but ended up getting minor injuries . after that we wanted to go to the sea for a dip , then the ball was kicked into it first ,then zhang wang , forgetting to take off his glasses first , jumped in to get in . . . then ended up his specs dropped off . we searched for awhile , but still cannot find .then we went to play other games . after that we laid down at the shore just on the water , then we started making stupid , STUPID sand sculptures. then we manage to find a stick , then we tought of "beach soft ball" where i stand one side kicking the ball to the otehr side , then someone use the stick to whack the ball away , then there are some people in the water catching the ball . . . also damn funny la . .. .haha.after that we rest again , then we saw at the opposite side , there was this small beach , where a man was sun bathing wif the dog , then the dog was so cute , we swim arcoss .after that we slacked at that side , the water was more cooling there , so shiok . . .haha. then after that we played "water captains ball" also very very funny . haha bloody lame ar . then after that we swim to the small beach again , then swim back , we play "beach captain ball" . . . play until very tired . . .then when we went back to drink water , we found that one side of our slippers was missing , and we discovered that our undergarments was in different bags . . . because the girls had nothing better to do then ended up making us play "treasure hunt" . . . first we foudn our clothes buried in the sand wif some rocks at the top. then later we found our slippers aslo buried in the sand . . . then later we went sun bathing again , then kennth was digging a hole , then he went in , and we buried him . . .haha then after that we still can make some funny sculptures on top, the pictures are wif covin i think . but very funny , other people walk pass all was laughing away.then we slacked off again , and the girls went off to don know where , lian jie was so suay that he tio rashes then cannot enter the water again . . . then after that we played "beach soccer" haha damn funny la , we play until siao , then suddenly this couple of bangla guys suddenly join in . . . then we sian tiao , then we never play.after that we went off to bath , suddenly we found another pair of slipppers , which was not any of ours . . ."scary" after we bathed we met up wif the girls then went off for dinner. after that we told the girls about the slippers , then they were like better put it back . . haha then we went all the way back to the beach to put it back , then after that as the other guys where playing soccer at the "musical fountain" the girls and kennth and me where off using the sparkling sticks to make ZW_CY means zhang wang and chong yong. then we gathered them and we lighted it and was alittle unsuccesful , but still manage to finish burning. then we went off to take the bus back to main land singapore . after that on the bus , the girls were talknig about don know wat thing , then when i asked , they said that when they went off to don know where, they sat the tram and infront had this bangla's taking video of them . . . then they were so "disgusted" wif the bangla . after that when we reached harbour front interchange , we took the bus home , and all where like sleeping away liao . end of story . . . haha for yst la , then today i asked around the people who went to sentosa yst , all had sunburn and had a difficult time sleeping . . . i am now bloody red and pain . . .then tonight is the world cup finals , hope italy win the bunch of OLD MANS = france !. well thats all bye bye .update some other time.

2006-05-12T19:32:00.000-07:00

well , haven been blogging recently , cause seriously nothing to update de . .. . on monday we had a soccer match , apparently i was being whacked at my ankle throughout the game . .. but the match ended 6 - 2 , we winning , and me being the hat-trick hero ! haha , but tyco de la . . . then they wanted to have a rematch , so we played it on thurs , we lost 5 - 3 , but nvm , i still manage to score a goal , and now my ankle is very very very injured la , cause someone go step onto it when i cleared the ball . .. well , that was accident la , so don't blame . . . so the total score tele is 9 - 7 , we coming out the victors !!!! haha . well , yst went to watch poseidon at westmall wif lynnette , the movie was great man . . .i will not describe the movie , cuase if not will be spoiling it for those who haevn watch . . . then after that , we went over to the new civil service club , the first impression stepping in was , WAAAAA! then as we walked in , WAAA WAAA WAAA , it was just so beautiful la ! then the swimming pools there were so damn nice , and the scenary was fantastic , it can never be descibed in words la , u have to be there to know it . .. , well today is also my god -sis b'day ! happy b'day hid . hmmm , nothing else to update le . .. . so cya guys , good lucks for exams !

2006-04-07T10:45:00.000-07:00

"Craig David Unbelievable lyrics"

Always said I would know where to find love, Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough, But some times I just felt I could give up. But you came and changed my whole world now, I'm somewhere I've never been before. Now I see, what love means.

[Chorus]

It's so unbelievable, And I don't want to let it go, Something so beautiful, Flowing down like a waterfall. I feel like you've always been, Forever a part of me. And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love, Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.

In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now, Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now, I was lost and you've rescued me some how-. I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me, And I've never been here before. Now I see, what love means.

[Chorus]
When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost, I cant help but break down, and cry. Ohh yeah, break down and cry.

[Chorus]
Now I see, what love means

2006-03-27T07:26:00.000-08:00

hi , IM back again . . .well recently don't knoe why feeling very wierd , like very dizzy dizzy de . . . then have been bowling the b div for the singles and doubles event . . . bowl like f@#k then hope can bowl well for team event . then today wake up super super late for school . . . like bout 10 then reach school . then when reach got pe , then have to run 9 laps around school . .. people got 1 period plus to run , i onli got 1 period . . . . NOT FAIR !!! haha , even that manage to run finish it with plenty of time to spare . . . then after that recess . . .me , lian jie , markus and eugene did our "COMBO" on alot of peopel . . .haha . then after that had poa lesson , okok la , started on new topic , but cause today our class and e5 combine class so took a long time to settle down . .. . after that had boring history lesson , haha today was teachers vs students . . .haha all arguing here and there . . . this one really happend not play or wat . .. haha . then after that had pyhsics lesson . ok ok la , but abit boring lor . .. . then after school had history lesson again .. . ended up so little people came for the csp haha but still continue then after the lesson accompany wan yin go plaza to buy stuff and return things , then on the way there saw zixin then she also went wif us , haha had a great time today la over all . well hope everything would be good for me this year in every aspect. . .

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~hoping for a miracle to happend for me~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~

2006-02-16T21:07:00.000-08:00

FINALLY one of my fren has told me wats going on , on monday , my fren told me bout everything , then at night , don't knoe how she knoe , she msg to say sry , well , i wasn't pissed wif her , i was pissed wif the bloody people talking behind my back ! and i clearly knoe who u are !!!! does not mean that i talk to u in class or wat very nicely , means that i don't knoe is u. well , then v'day , started talking to her more , cause she say we lack of communication ma , so i started talking to her again , that day i was like sought of happy la , cause talking to her again . . . haha . well , then the next day arrived , while playing bball , i sprained my right leg . . . wtf . then that day i did not really talk to her face to face , but talked abit at night on msn .then yst was a completely boring day . . . after school went out wif frances , liwen , qi quan , xing ying and yansin , we went for window shopping , then ys wanted to buy a bag , so manage to find one . . then after that when qi quan and xing ying left , we went to the arcade at doby ghot. so fun ar, haha me and ys was going to break the record for the bball game , then later the stupid staff switched off the power , then we cannot break . . . so pissed offfffff. then today , another fren came to talk to me , bout i have changed , i admit la , i have changed my attitude all this and my temper is coming back . . . but all this , can pls don't talk behind my back ma ? just come straight to me and say la . . . i will not eat u or something right ???? but now that i knoe why people have been talking behind my back , i am going to change once again , and for the better . I PROMISE !!!! . well later going out to watch the fog , so gtg le .

2006-01-22T05:25:00.000-08:00

ello everyone , back again, just update update abit , actually nothing much to update la , but well , yst bowled in the singapore poly open , then my team ended up getting 5th , which also have a prize . . .LOL . . . my team consisted of me , aaron , and markus . then the next time that got 6th place was elysia , eileen and shao hong . btu also got prize , prizes were up to top 10 la , but i don't feel very happy lor , did not bowl well at all la , the lanes , haiz , don't wanna say ar . . . . its just simply said as horrible , then the format was also damn stupid la , wat squad 1 bowl 3 games , then stop , then squad 2 bowl 3 games , then stop , then squad 1 bowl another 3 games , then squad two bowl another 3 games , wa lan , spoil tempo la !!! then somemore , oil once , then expect us to bowl all the way , so damn F@#KING dry. . .haiz , but wat to do . . . already over . . . haiz my life is still in such a maze . . . don't knoe wat to do la . everyday , i just think of her , don't knoe wat to do , "should i ask her another time ?" then somemore , another major point has knocked me in the head when it was mention by one of my friends , now too many people knowing le , CAN U PEOPLE STOP SPREADING ???? argh . . . then at least don't have to disturb her right ??? anything have to say , come say to me la . . . haiz haiz haiz . really gonna be brain dead soon ar , don't knoe wat to do !!!!. well , thats all . haha (HAIZ)

2006-01-08T08:03:00.000-08:00

well , now is at the stroke of 12 , so i am officially 17!!! cannot wait till next year when 18 then it would be great . well , so _____ b'day to me. well , i leave a space there cause i am not really sure that it would be a happy or sad b'day for me . hmmm , i shall post about school , the first week of school , was so damn boring ar !!!! . . . actually nothing much to say . . . haha . well , things does not seem to be happending the way i wan , including a major prob . . . well , things just don't feel like its moving ar , so damn irritated now !!! well , i also don't knoe if i should ask , i have been waiting for 7mths le . . . haiz . just hope things will continue for the better .

2005-12-27T11:04:00.000-08:00

Well , I should start from when I watched king Kong , I forgot the date already , but well , that day went out wif Frances , shi hua , yansin and zixin . Heard they wanted to watch the 3pm show , then people where late , then later postpone to 6pm , then somemore people where late , then we ended up wathing the 9pm show , well it was worth waiting for the show , cause it really is very nice , I really recommend this show to everyone , then after the show , it was 12 ++ so just nice got one mrt , then we took to bukit batok mrt station and started walking to hill view to send shi hua home first , then from there walked to teck whye to send zixin and kennth home , then finally back to bukit panjang but had to travel to pending before i went home to send Frances home. hmm then I shall start again from my cousins party yst . Well , it was kinda of dull in the start , but then started playing DARE OR DARE (we must do the dare , if not we have to take a forfeit , which is gin) then play until very long , started to get boring , then started dancing again , at that time was a little high , not from the alcohol , but cause a little happy that day , so just a little high lor . . . LOL , then they played a lot of songs that I knew , then I started dancing and singing to the songs . Well it was over all a successful party . THX FOR THE PARTY "GUYS". . . haha . Well that's all to update . But hope to have more of such parties !!!
hmm , k k i already updated , so i did not break my promise ar . . .haha

2005-12-16T08:58:00.000-08:00

Hmm just feel liek posting , since after a whole day of fun . . . well i shall start from the time eugene , markus , yansin and me went to jurong entertainment centre , we wanted to go there just to play cs , but end up playing arcade and cs , haha , well the com i had the second time waas f@#ked up , the screen was so dark , until i could not even see my opponents . . . "SIAN" . then after we play finish le , we walk to imm to just walk walk , then we sat at burger king , then we chat chat chat , then said alot of stupid and funny things , laugh until we stomach cramp ar . . . haha , well later we were going home by mrt , then later we also play in the mrt "although childish , but fun haha" we went in somewhere from the front , then walk all the way to the back , then later when we reach cck mrt le , we took another mrt backwards to gombak station , then took another mrt back to cck station . .. haha laughing all the way . . . well , today really had fun , but well , of cause i would not have 100% fun , as long as i cannot be wif her la . haiz .

"A tear from me , is a tear for you . This is to show you how much i love you and if you gave me this chance , i will shed my tears forever , JUST FOR YOU" . haiz just feeling down suddenly . . .

2005-12-05T12:27:00.000-08:00

Hmmm , been through a roller coaster , well i shall start from a prob , well this time , i am sure i did not do anything , but he like bo chap me , that . . . i also don;t knoe wat to do la . k then moving on , on the 28th-30th nov went to chalet , really had fun , wanted to drink until i was drunk though , but just cannot get drunk . . . well on the day of the class gathering on the 29th , that day i really felt super useless ar . haiz . have been hoping to see HER for so long , but when i saw her , my heart just sank to the bottom of the sea ar. . . that day i really hoped for something to happend , but well my expectations was to high , and absolutly nothing happend !!!!! then felt super down ar , then just as SHE and some friends was about to leave , i was in the room feeling damn damn damn down . almost cried ar . just felt very down. then after they left , i went down and drank somemore . . . but still cannot get drunk . . . WTF. haiz until now i still feeling very sad sia , wonder if i would ever be given the chance to be wif her ar . haiz . hmm , moving on , "i have finally made it an habit to jog everyday !!!" haha lol. well just to let u guys knoe , i am doing all this just for HER . been doing intense weight training , everyday go jog . well seen some improvments la , but i feel not good enough !!! haiz , no matter wat i talk about now , i would still be thinking of HER . haiz . well nothing else le . . .
"hmm , about my msn nick , "determination is everything !!!" is that when i first started jogging , i wanted to give up half way , but just thinking of her , made me push myself to the limit "

2005-11-16T15:24:00.000-08:00

hihi , i am back again to update , today very tired , this morning had bowling training , nearly late ar . but well bowling starting to improve abit . then just came back from a jog , now resting . haiz too long never jog liao ar , no more stamina . . . jog along the lrt track starting and ending at my house stop "petir lrt station" . haiz , at first half way through wanted to give up liao , but suddenly some toughts just passed through my mind and i had the inspiration to start jogging and to continue all the way . wa the sun showed no mercy man , all the way through my jog its so damn bloody hot . . . well who ask me jof in the afternoon in the first place . . . .haha . well later going to gombak to eat chicken rice wif friend.then at night see lor . . . well , i guess from today onwards , that would be my daily routine liao ba . but haiz , i really still feeling down ar . . . "thinking of her'' . although i have waited so long , i would not give up , i will wait until the day i die . i don't knoe why , but i really have very strong feelings for her , and so not easy to forget about her le . well , haven seen her since the school ended . haiz , but still thinking of her.

"i wonder why , lately there are so many love shows at night , wondering if i am being paraniod or its just a concidence . . . cause all the show is showing that a guy loves a girl , but don't dare to do anything , then after that regret when everything is gone . . ."

2005-11-15T15:24:00.000-08:00

2005-10-29T02:26:00.000-07:00

hmmm today is finally the end of a long year of schooling , but i don't feel happy at all , cause i would not be enjoying the 2mth of holidays , have to "pia" my works to get rdy for sec 4 liao . . .haiz this time round aiming to go jc cause i have already wasted a year , so must put in alot of effort . . . well today got back our report book , and suprisingly i manage to get 2nd in class and 18th overall in the lvl , tought i would have drop cause my end of year did not do well , "thx to my combine scince . . ." well still its my fault la . hmm hope can get awards for this ba , like good progress award , then got money hehe . oh ya then found out something . . . my class teacher in-charge have been reading our blogs . . . !!!! so mr lee , if u'r reading this , just post a msg to show that u have been here ba . haha . . . . k moving back to my life , well still very very very confused in my feelings " would not go into it" . haiz but actually i felt i could have done better for my final year , just too "sian" to put more effort , well as my close friends would knoe about my problems and why i did not do as i expected i would do . . . haha . haiz . now so sian so just post. nothing to talk bout liao le . " if humans can be like computers which u can delete anything u wan , would be the best , as we are all filled wif problems and no one is problem free." haiz . . .

::::: Wondering If I Would Have A Chance:::::::

2005-10-17T09:24:00.000-07:00

well where to start ? ? ? oh ya exams are finally over !!! yea . but . . . . . . . still got alot of problems not solved . haiz . . . why must my life be such piece of crap . . . well then today just reformat my com . . . scared kanna keylogger , so just reformat . hmm then today and tomorrow is HOLIDAY . . .casue marking day . haiz so scared for my results la . . . well hope i can score and get the good progress award . . . lol. hmm nothing much to update le . . . "in the morning , the wind shares its coolness wif us . in the afternoon , the sun shares the light and warmth wif us . in the night , the moon shares wif us the beautiful scenary all around . and on the earth , love is shared wif everyone , so does it mean u would share u'r love wif me ? " well this is another short poem i tought of . well might not be perfect yet , cause still working on it , some might even say its not a poem , but this is wat i feel at this very moment . . .

:every day , i am spending my life thinking if i would ever have the chance . . . haizzzz

2005-09-28T21:49:00.000-07:00

hmmm where should i start? today super sian . . . nothing to do at home at all la . . . .. . . play game until scared liao . then still got problems . . . argh i hate problems la . .. . .. . . . haiz just wondering if it is really my fault at all lor . my exams is just in a weeks time , then i have been out studying and studying , then when come home very late le , then very tired so go and sleep , then no time to go read others blog , is that really my fault? ask the school to not give any exams la , its not like i havent mention it before la (i already have made the mistake once by not studying , i will not make it again) so really damn damn damn confused la , just thinking why every single F**KING thing have to be my fault ???? have u ever even spared a tought for me? u thinku'r the onli one wif feelings? or the onli one wif problems???? well just to inform u , i am also a HUMAN , i have much more problems u have , and alot of feelings too , its just i never show it out ok . . . well if things is gonna stay like this then i also don't knoe wat to do ar. JUST THINK ABOUT IT LA... wat have i been thinking off ? "if ever one is the same , and flawless , wats the point of creating us in the first place? wouldn't everone have the same toughts and feelings then ?"haiz i really damn damn damn confused ar . jsut wondering if i am thinking more of her or more then this situation ar . haiz (really don't knoe wat to do"

2005-09-22T21:00:00.000-07:00

well now adays got very wierd feelings . i also not sure why . . .haiz wonder wat should i do .. . hmm today in school was ok ar , started off wif pe then played soccer in the field and the weather was crazy . . . keep on raining for about 10mintues then stop then rain again then stop . . . haha hmm even that the score was 2 -2 well i scored two goals FOR MY TEAM . . . then after that d&t , about this time i getting sian already then no mood to do anything . then afte reccess is poa then still put in effort to do la , although it was boring . then after that is was bio and maths . . . it really hit the damn boring scale man . totally loss interest but just listen in class . . . hha but when teacher ask us do question , i just wait for answer . . .no mood le ma . . . well i have been doing some thinking again . . . "why is it everytime when we look back in time , we would be looking at the things that have gone wrong and start to regret about it . well i certainly have looked back very oftenly and regreted alot of things i should have done or could have done , but now i wanna change , cause i don't wanna to look back in time again to regret something i should have done , or could have done . " haizzzzz wondering if i would ever have a chance . . . haizzzzzz

2005-09-08T04:51:00.000-07:00

hmmm today so happpppy , nothing can make me sad mannnnn .. . well i will keep it to myself why i am happy , but of cause is something that is very significant that happend to me . . . well today never do anything much , at home all day long , just play game , and do some home work. then have done some thinking . well the most meaningful sentence that i tought of today is "the only wish i would ever wan , is to be able to change life wif U , so you can feel how much i think and do for u , and i also can see wat u are thinking of so i can be a better person."well thats all for today . haha

2005-09-01T06:33:00.000-07:00

hmm . lets start from yst , cause teachers day eve then never go school , but go back pri school , wa go back right , feel damn big . . .haha. . . play basketball , can slam and hang on the ring . . haha . well this year i felt very little people went back ar , but still had a fun time haha. then today , go play TENNIS , finally after so long , i play again . . . well had very fun time today also , but hopei can play tennis more often ar. . . hmm yst i recieve this horoscope thingy from a friend , then mine says "A man in this Zodiac will has a pair of round big beautiful eyes, a nice structure jaw line. He is a good listener and can understand everything easily and clearly. He can guess what you will say before you even say it. He often shakes his head or touch his hair. He is a big built, but he will tend to have a small ear. He tends to have a darker shade of hair and eyes' color. He will likely have a short and strong neck, broad shoulder, muscular, strong hands and grips. He has a shorter fingers compare to the man of the same size and same height in the other zodiac. His hands can work well at the same time can protect and care for his woman.
His height will be proportional to his weight. He will walk firmly and always take a big long step. As he walks he will look around in caution with no disturbance from his problems at present or in the past. He likes to watch things built with fascinate and! wonder about how it is done, so you could see him watching a construction site and not get bored.
He is a good dancer. He is a careful person in instinct, so even at dance floor, he will already have to know what in front or behind him before he will take any steps.
Green is his favorite color. You will mostly see him wear green, navy, blue, or brown. In all 12 Zodiacs, he is the one who can get the most satisfaction from possession of beautiful thing, and cherish it as if it is very valuable to him even it is just a crystal ball made in France.
It is his luck that he hardly has to chase after woman. They always come themselves without his invitation. He likes to treat his guest in his house than visiting his guest at their house. He does not like to be a center of attention, so if you need his help, you have to look up for him. He lives his life in stability and simplicity. Every decision made are already "Sure" and carefully thought out. He will not do what he has been asked to do if he is not interested in doing it. He acts casually but in reality, he always doing things seriously.
He loves peaceful and quiet environment so in his free time, he will stay at home instead of going out and look for adventure. He loves nature and dreams of a nice and quiet house with lots of trees, or he may dream of a house in a beautiful countryside.
He will let you have freedoms and watching you in a distance. If you are over doing something, he will let you know by his icy cold look. He is the perfect lover in all the Zodiac for nothing he will not do for his love one. He won't allow people to laugh at him or think he is a joker, so he will spent for himself luxury for what it is worth.
He likes neat and well dressed woman, so do not be a slop if you are dating this guy. If you do that he will loose his face. He is the romantic type who would dance with you under the moon light.
Love! will ma ke him shines and you will see it in his face. He will not say it out loud, you have to know it yourself. " haha , its about 80% true so far lar , but hope it can be 100% true lar , then if anyone wanna see u'r own one , tell me i send u the whole horoscope thing . . .haha. k chaoz . maybe blog again in next week or maybe slightly longer . . . haha

2005-08-26T08:09:00.000-07:00

well today just feel like posting again . well so far in my studies , its getting better and better. well today school was super boring !!!!! start out wif english two periods , then spend the whole two periods doing arguementative esay . . . then so boring , then later is maths , cher never come then spend the whole time in class shooting wif people wif paper bullets . haha very childish lar , but nothing to do mar . . . then after that two periods of chinese then sleep all the way throught then recess . then after taht is last period history , see devi face onli i wanna die liao , then somemore her lesson so damn suky lor. . . so boring also. then after school went out wif jade ,"milo", nicki , lynnette , maybritte and kar hwee then go watch "The Maid" . . .people say nice to watch and say scary , i spend almost the whole time laughing . . . don't knoe wats wif me and this kind of movies lar , tend to laugh . then after that when wanna go home , wait for bus like siao , 5 bus pass us cause all full liao , then finally come liao , still very crowded (i think smrt or sbs really earn alot lor) then now home nothing to do just blog haha . k k bb

2005-08-10T02:50:00.000-07:00

well sorry for not blogging for a long time , don't knoe wat to blog . well yesterday i "thon" at my friends house , then this pass few days have been playing alot of tennis , seems like i have a new sport to be intersted in , and guess wat is it ? .. . .. . ............................................... TENNIS , haha , well but i am really starting to loss interest in bowling , but i would not give up on bowling , i already spend so much effort and time into it , i will not give it up so easily . . . well then this week really long weekend , then tomorrow go back school , (sian , but good) cause got pe tomorrow . haha , well i guess this all i have lar , then i guess i will be blogging

2005-07-05T11:25:00.000-07:00

well honestly , i am still very very sad. today mood even worst then usual cause i found out some thing very very important. well it seems that the person i like (i guess she does not knoe i like her) , another guy likes her too , well i would not metion any names lar . well how i wish i could just turn back time and make a faster move then HIM or either go back and study harder and not retain and might not even knoe her . . . well i seem to be running away from the situation in this one , haiz but still my heart aches and very very pain . i guess this is the first time i am feeling this so it really suks lar . well today school as usual (boring) and then after school suppose to do my history hw but end up delay delay delay until never do then i guess tomorrow then i do. then after that at night had league , our team owned the other team man , swallowing them like they were jsut like soup. haha but i did not bowl . haha hand injured agian . well so far thats all lar . well how i hope i can change back time and do wats right . haiz haiz haiz. . .

2005-07-03T09:40:00.000-07:00

well i promised i will try to update more often so i update today lor . . . haha . well don't knoe wats wrong wif me recently and sry to all of my friends cause i knoe i have been feeling in a dumb recently and yar i think i really effected alot of people . . . well i also don't knoe why i have been "thinking too much" lately and so sian . every time think one time , feel so sad . haiz why must life screw me until so badly ? hasn't it done enough to me ? wat does it wan ? argh. well hope i can be wif the person i like and well recently i also have been doing more studies (insperation from "her") then more bowling . all my friends must be going woa is this the jerome we knoe . . . haha well nothing much to update le .

2005-06-28T00:04:00.000-07:00

hmm since a long time since i have updated well today just in the mood so just update lor . . . today is the reopening of school after one month holiday (sob sob) well now at least my bowling is getting better(erm maybe i never update but my bowling run water lar) , then not sure if tomorrow wanna bowl the mini masters or not.(short of cash , bowling still not that good) well hope got people can sponser me lor ) . . . haha. well i must be dreaming .haha haiz today school is alright , but still as boring aas ever. then class counsler change to mr lee , last time is mr lim but onli for one term lor . . . then no new teachers (except mr lee) and thats all lor. then after school go to macs go and eat and "study" wif aisyah and serine . . . but actually is pia the maths hw lar . .. well nothing else liao lor . . . then of cause now thinking of "someone" well how i hope that person would knoe lar . . . haiz......

2005-06-06T04:04:00.000-07:00

waaaaaaa very long time never update liao . . . haha . no mood to update lor , then now school holidays so alot of time so just come and update lor . . . well nothing much has happend to me recently so not really alot to talk about . . .but one sat , during the masters if the national age group , jazreel hit a perfect game !!! wao so envy her lor . . . then thx to that perfect game , she also got top for the masters event. well then nothing much else to say liao . . .

here

2005-05-04T19:55:00.000-07:00

THIS ONE IS ANOTHER LYRIC . BUT VERY NICE SONG.RIGHT HERE WAITING FOR U

Oceans apart, day after dayAnd I slowly go insaneI hear your voice, on the lineBut it doesn't stop the painIf I see you next to neverhow can we say forever(chorus)Wherever you go, whatever you doI will be right here, waiting for youWhatever it takes, or how my heart breaksI will be right here waiting for youI took for granted, all The timesThat I thought would last somehowI hear the laughter, I taste the tearsBut I can't get near you nowOh can't you see it baby,You've got me going crazy(chorus)I wonder how we can survive, this romanceBut in the end if I'm with you, I'll take the chanceOh you can't see it babyYou've got me going crazy(chorus)

lyrics

2005-05-02T03:15:00.000-07:00

another lyric but this one is wat i feel is happending to me ...lonely---akon

Lonely im so lonely,I have nobody,To call my owwnnnIm so lonely, im mr. LonelyI have nobody, To call my owwnnnIm so lonely, Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got to have one good girl whose always been there like yaKno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leaveI wont up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I wasFeenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuzEver since my girl left me, my whole left life came crashinIm so lonely so lonely,Im mr. Lonely mr. LonelyI have nobody I have nobodyTo call my own to call my own girlIm so lonely so lonelyIm mr. Lonely mr. LonelyI have nobody I have nobodyTo call my own to call my own girlCant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuckAround and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, IReally wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girlIm so lonely so lonelyIm mr. Lonely mr. LonelyI have nobody I have nobody to call my ownTo call my own to call my own girlIm so lonely so lonelyIm mr. Lonely mr. LonelyI have nobody I have nobodyTo call my own to call my own girlBeen all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been throughNever thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing uCuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made meBe so happy but now so lonelySo lonely so lonelyIm mr. Lonely mr. LonelyI have nobody I have nobodyTo call my own to call my own Im so lonely so lonelyIm mr. Lonely mr. LonelyI have nobody I have nobodyTo call my own to call my own girrllNever thought that id be alone, I didnt hope you'd be gone this long, I jus want u to come home, so stop playing girl andCome on home come on home, baby girl I didn't mean to shout, I want me and you to work it out, I never wished Id everHurt my baby, and its drivin me crazy cuz...Im so lonely so lonelyIm mr. Lonely mr. LonelyI have nobody I have nobodyTo call my own to call my own Im so lonely so lonelyIm mr. Lonely mr. LonelyI have nobody I have nobodyTo call my own to call my own girllLonely, so lonelySo lonely, so lonely,Mr. Lonely, so lonelySo lonely, so lonely, so lonely, Mr. Lonely

2005-04-21T07:34:00.000-07:00

lyrics of my fav old song ( WORDS) by the Bee Gees

Smile an everlasting smile, a smile can bring you near to me.Don't ever let me find you gone, cause that would bring a tear to me.This world has lost its glory, let's start a brand new story now, my love.Right now, there'll be no other time and I can show you how, my love.Talk in everlasting words, and dedicate them all to me.And I will give you all my life, I'm here if you should call to me.You think that I don't even mean a single word I say.It's only words, and words are all I have, to take your heart away

sian

2005-04-20T08:27:00.000-07:00

hmmm long time never post le so after alot of pressure ... i decide to type today cause alot to say lar (to me is alot) today firstly started wif school ...school as usual lar (SIAN) then some more don't knoe why today i super super shagged ... then after school got a stupid combine cca thingy ..this week better lar but last week was hell cause mr maran ask us to run 15 ROUNDS but this week mr ken ng onli ask us to run 11 rounds cause if not is run outsde de ...sian ...then wats even better ????? after the whole stupid damn combine cca thing . got a soccer match ... play half way suddenly aloy kanna tackle then not happy then go throw attitude around the whole field but lucky just nice half time .... then after that i stop le lor ... have to rush home to do something lor ... then before i leave the score is 3 -0 my team leading but wat happends after that i don't knoe le ... then now also very very very very sian lor so just decide to update ... k lar thats all ... now i see hor not really that long ...hahahhaa

sian

2005-04-06T09:50:00.000-07:00

today , first of all ... class sukssssssssss ... then second ... i suk ....then lastly lost my soccer skills .... sian haiz ... too long never play liao . haiz then update cause since so many wan me update lor ... haiz now just too many things up my mind lar ... i tought i already told my self i wanted to give up on her ... but wtf suddenly just now think of her then damn damn sad lor .... haiz haiz haiz when will i get a gf ??????? sian .... its like so boring to be myself onli .....

today

2005-03-29T05:14:00.000-08:00

yea today i finally got my new 7 foot pool table le ... yea yea yea ... so happy . just now play like siao haha but play wif my self onli so training mar ...haha yea ... haiz but onli thing i scared is tomorrow cause tomorrow another day of b div le ... cannot drop any more leh... now onli got 190 on the dot .... must at least maintain this avg .... hope the best for me and the best for fajar bowlers toooooooooo

today

2005-03-26T11:00:00.000-08:00

haiz i just feel so sian nowadays(lonely)(one person alone) haiz how i wish i can find the girl of my life now... even that not onli that is on my mind ... cause i suddenly tought wat if i bowl badly on monday ? everybody would not be proud of me le ... also not mentally prepared for the worst ... don't even knoe wat will i do if i bowl really really badly ... haiz .................................................................................................................

today

2005-03-23T11:16:00.000-08:00

haiz today got my tournament ... my b div .first game bowled a 159...pulled me down alot
then second 200+ then third 233 then fourth 200+ then fifth drop again bowled a 177...then last game bowled a 207...short of 15 pins to be 200 avg ARGH then onli got 197.5 avg(sian) hope can enter masters lar....haiz k lor thats all for today .haha i now bo liao so just write

lyrics

2005-03-21T11:28:00.000-08:00

I'm not a perfect personThere's many things I wish I didn't doBut I continue learningI never meant to do those things to youAnd so I have to say before I goThat I just want you to knowI've found a reason for meTo change who I used to beA reason to start over newand the reason is youI'm sorry that I hurt youIt's something I must live with everydayAnd all the pain I put you throughI wish that I could take it all awayAnd be the one who catches all your tearsThat's why i need you to hearI've found a reason for meTo change who I used to beA reason to start over newand the reason is Youand the reason is you and the reason is youand the reason is youI'm not a perfect personI never meant to do those things to youAnd so I have to say before I goThat I just want you to knowI've found a reason for meTo change who I used to beA reason to start over newand the reason is youI've found a reason to showA side of me you didn't knowA reason for all that I doAnd the reason is you

today

2005-03-17T11:50:00.000-08:00

HAIZ today so sian lar...don't know wats wrong wif me lar... feeling very very emotional nowadays. have i met the right girl ? do i knoe her ? does she have a heart for me ?is she pretty ? all this questions just keep appearing in my head.... haiz.today went to victors to bowl "stimulation"... the lanes there are(haiz)so damn bloody dry (wtf) then have to make me "stroke" the ball or else normally i would be something like "crank the ball" or power stroker...then stay there wait for the aes boys then go homt together... haiz actually thats all happend for today lar...

lyrics

2005-03-17T08:13:00.000-08:00

Smile an everlasting smile, a smile can bring you near to me.
Don't ever let me find you down, cause that would bring a tear
to me.
This world has lost its glory, let's start a brand new story
now, my love.
Right now, there'll be no other time and I can show you how, my
love.
Talk in everlasting words, and dedicate them all to me.
And I will give you all my life, I'm here if you should call to
me.
You think that I don't even mean a single word I say.
It's only words, and words are all I have, to take your heart
away.

nothing to do

2005-03-17T00:19:00.000-08:00

now nothing to do and also want to go orh orh liao ,then just now the "aunty elieen" ask me update so cause she older then me so must respect mar (lol) even that nothing much happend lar...yesterday got training the sian lor (ok ok lar) then later at 10 50 have to reach plaza...go victors train AGAIN sian now left 6 more days to the b "div" so stress hoping this year i can win something back for the school ... so i will be known in the school (hehehe)but honestly lar bowl for so long haven win and major title (noob) sian leh......erm cannot thing of anything liao leh... k lar i go sleep le (nite nite to all) .p.s those fajar bowlers , don't worry i will not "phyco" u in the b "div" so don't worry ....oh yar , just heard miss tan not teaching us maths le ...she just told me on msn(sian)then is one new moe teacher haiz sure suky one....opps. k lar tired le.bb

POEM

2005-03-13T10:42:00.000-08:00

The earth has gravity to pull us down and to prevent us from floating off from place to place , but people miss use it by jumping off buildings to commit suicide and to run away from thier problems....its just the same as friendship,as friendship helps people to bond together and to stay close in touch incase of help ........but i have just made the one big mistake of friendship,and it is breaking one friendship.so i would just want to say that i am sorry and can we start a new like how we first met.would u forgive me please ,i am truely sry..........

wrriten by: jerome yeo(Me writting this poem from my heart to u)

sad sad and SAD

2005-03-12T07:14:00.000-08:00

pass few days don't feel like blogging cause no mood to blog....haiz just sad lar , argued wif von for no reason and now i am just feeling very guilty lor(wat should i do ?can i have a feed back ? apologise ?)haiz i really don't knoe lar...even that that day don't knoe why had a bad day and so i just lost it lor...bowling also drop then that day suddenly argue then i snapped(haiz)even that just now i went biking starting from 7 but got some long long breaks...then half way cycle rain until so heavy...then my shirt so dirty all the mud every thing cause wanna chiong home to bath cause very sticky(eeeeeee)then went back plaza for awhile cause at home nothing to do....k lar thats all oh yar and i finally passed all my subjects (yea)and my mood now is still guilty (haiz sad man)

uncles 50th b'day

2005-03-09T10:54:00.000-08:00

today school very sian .... as usual do the same things. but today last day of school yea(but onli one week holiday) then at night go my uncle b'day he today 50 le(happy b'day) then i sit at the table very sian de all no one talk then very sian....felt like sleeping.then now home nothing to do so just blog in lor(hehe)

about today

2005-03-08T07:45:00.000-08:00

today just like every after day lar...first start off the day wif the stupid ah lim(physics) teaching us , wa lau a he also another one teach no one listen one ....like talking to wall like that de (hahaha) then after that stupid kee teck class(POA) today he brought some tibits for us to eat but as usual , its from ntuc (hmmm like his sponsered by ntuc like that every thing all ntuc) then the next two period is mdm adawiyah(social studies) this teacher wa lan bloody attitude today then heard from other class she very bias de...then somemore ask us to compo then must hand in by tomorrow morning then always threaten us that its going to be included in mid year and if we don't pass up = that paper 0000000.after that recess,as usual sit at the back of the canteen wif jade,wee kiat,carolyn,hidayah and nicki. then today can resist not eating again(going on diet) hehe . then after recess is miss tan(maths) but today she never come then relief so sian the stupid teacher damn sian ar but looks like she is from dance de... then after that english(mrs kalai and mrs poon) first period spent reading yesterdays newspaper then after that write esay on how we feel about leaving the fancy life on our own... then history stupid devi come in tell us must hand up file by tomorrow(sian)then thats all for school lar........come home onli sleep like pig until now i start posting lor(haha) then as usual thinking of her lor but still wanna cry(haiz why i so no hope de) don't knoe why is like every time i see her or think of her my whole body just shut off lor then no mood to do anything(love sick ?) haiz nvm ...k k happy holidays !!!!!!!!!!

lyrics of the song

2005-03-08T00:35:00.000-08:00

ni de xin qing zong zai feishen me shi dou xiang qu zhuixiang zhua zhu yi dian an weini zong shi xi guan zai renqun zhong pai hueini zui hai pa gu dan de zhi weini de xin na me chuiyi peng jiu hui shuijing bu qing yi dian feng chuini de shen bian zong shi yaoshu duo ren peini zui hai pa mei tian de tian heiDan shi tian zong hui heiren zong yao li bieshui ye bu neng yong yuan pei shuier gu dan de zi weishui dou yao mian duibu zhi shi ni wohui gan jue dao pi beiChorus: * dang ni gu dan ni hui xiang qi shuini xiang bu xiang zhao ge ren lai peini de kuai le shang beizhi yao wo neng ti huirang wo zai pei ni zhou yi hui~ ni de xin qing zong zai feishen me shi dou xiang qu zhuixiang zhua zhu yi dian an weini zong shi xi guan zai renqun zhong pai hueini zui hai pa gu dan de zhi weini de xin na me chuiyi peng jiu hui shuijing bu qing yi dian feng chuini de shen bian zong shi yaoshu duo ren peini zui hai pa mei tian de tian heiDan shi tian zong hui heiren zong yao li bieshui ye bu neng yong yuan pei shuier gu dan de zi weishui dou yao mian duibu zhi shi ni wohui gan jue dao pi beiRepeat chorus * 2xNi de kuai le shang beizhi yao wo neng ti huirang wo zai pei ni zhou yi hui Ko

FIRST DAY POSTING

2005-03-07T11:25:00.000-08:00

yesterday i sprained my leg after the bowling tournament...did well scored a 199.7 avg for three games and my team got number 1 yea... today never go school cause go polyclinic to check my leg cause it swell up(haiz) but doctor say nothing serious and can be ok by friday (heng arg got my b'div to bowl on 23rd march) then after that went bowling ally to accompany hao quan aka stanly zhang haha the my school having training there ... all surprise cause i never go training then have to tell them reason haha . then now uncle soh open the food/drink shop in the alley then now need to help out liao . haiz i ask u guys hor , if u get rejected , should u avoid her or wat ? cause everytime i see her i feel like crying leh haiz sad sad(sob) haiz k lar thats all for today